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Thursday, 12 April 2007

to the boyfriend:

You're full of surprises and surely last night you completely surprised me.. You proved me wrong and showed me that when I needed you MORE than ever you were there for me. You listened to what I had to say and how I cried even though it killed you inside because you couldn't be here to hold me in your arms to reassure me that things will be okay in the end... But honestly letting me cry my heart out and you listening to me and then cheering me up no matter how late it was made a difference. Although that won't be the last time I'll cry about her, but knowing that you'll always be there for me to run to when I can no longer be strong is enough for me. I appreciate that you understand my feelings and will be by my side through this. I know how much it will hurt you to see me go through this but THANK YOU SO MUCH for staying by my side and I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!

Monday, 02 April 2007

To the boyfriend: (too bad you'll never see this...)
I've told you once, I've told you twice, and in the end I've told you many times before... My problems with you are always the same. You say you love me but your actions speaks differently from what you say. What I don't understand is how can you spend more time with your friends which you see most of them at school... And on weekends or what not you're with them for more than 5 hours or more but when you come down to see me each time it's usually 2-3 hours... And all I've asked from you is just ONE day.. Just you and I spending the day with each other... A walk in the park or at the lake just talking and enjoying the simple things in life... Or just being in your arms is good enough... I just want you to talk to me with talk so sweet and to share your world with me not half of it. I know that we don't share the same interest but that doesn't mean I'm not interested in listening to what makes you happy. I love it most when I can hear the joy and happiness in your voice and laughter and seeing you truly smile because you're truly happy. Don't let me in half way into your world, it's either you let me in completely or not at all... And you need to also learn that you can talk to me about anything... In the begining we were more than just boyfriend and girlfriend to each other.. We were also like best friends who we can always run to with any problems... What happened to us? Why are the way we are to each other? What happen to the love that was impossible to break...?

Monday, 08 January 2007

I'm not here to write things for people to comment me on or judge me by or even to get attention. I'm only here to release my thoughts. If you have something to say then whatever, but I would prefer that you don't say anything because I don't need anyones opinion on what I write and how I feel for the moment not unless i asked for it. This is my xanga my domain and I have the right to wriite what and how I feel.

Thanks and have a good day/night.

Sunday, 24 December 2006

It's hurts too much to go through everyday smiling on the outside but broken up in the inside. Trying to make everyone believe that everything is fine is simple but trying to convince myself that everything is fine and nothing hurts is more difficult. I can never be happy with you and completely accept you for how you really are until the I lose you. And I know that you're not always going to be there and put up with my b/s and keep letting me hurt you... And I know for a fact that I don't ever want to lose you because I honestly and truly do love you more than anything in this world... And I know there's a limit of how much a person can take and I guess you're done putting up with my b/s and if this is true, I understand because I know that not everything lasts forever... But do know that I never meant to hurt you in anyways and I'm sorry to be the first to break your heart and put you through so much.

"no matter what i say or do that breaks your heart you still remain by my side loving me through thick and thin... and ii love you so much more than what words can say. you're more than what i can ask for....
ii know that i'll love you till death do us part. because there's no one in this world that i would want to spend the rest of my life with"